SOMETHING IN MY MIND

i can't sleep.. don't know why.. tonight, urmm... not night actually. it's already early in the morning.. lately, i'm thinking too much.. 1st, FAMILY. 2nd, MYSELF. 3rd, MY LOVER. okay, begin with the most important persons in my life.

FAMILY

i always worried about them. i'm afraid that i can't accomplish my life goal. i'm their first hope. well, our financial conditions also not as GOOD as others. i really want to have a successful life. happy life.. when you get home, there is a BRIGHT SMILE on their LIPS. i want it damn much!! it just me.. the one that is too weakk!! why i can't do better? what's wrong with me? i don't have a brain damage. i'm healthy!! i'm just weak..  pleasee.. mom, dad, lil bro.. wait for kakak to graduate, get a job, earn money, but a house, buy a car, and anything or everything or all the things that you all ever wanted in your dreams.. i will try to turns all of your fantasy become reality.. I LOVE U ALL..

MYSELF

i'm A PERSON who is lack of CONFIDENT. i love to talk with others. chit chat. get along. but when it's about speaking in ENGLISH, ohh myy enggliisshhh. it is sucks man.. you can see it from here guys.. maybe i'm too careful. afraid to make mistake. afraid that people will laugh at me and says, "TEROK, TAK PAYAHLAH KO SPEAKING" or "YOU SOUNDS STUPID".. on the spot, i'm going to bury myself maybe.. hahha.. hem.. sad actually.. but i will not give up. i will learn to become a great speaker. hopefully.. huahuahua.. i love ENGLISH. it's just me, lack of confident.. help me guys.. i'm begging.. huuu... speaking is my greatest fear in UNIVERSITY for now.. hoho..

MY LOVE ONE

owkk tedah.. when i'm thinking about my man, i will feel pity for him.. you all want to know why? it is because he always wanted a very romantic date with me. but i'm barely have it with him. it's not that i'm not a ROMANTICOO LADDYY~ i'm just shy with the other people around us.. the eyes that staring at us.. and most important reason is, i have broken my heart badly before.. my exbf is totally errffhhhh!!!!! i'm become afraid to give 100% of me to him. sorry yayang.. please be patience.. i am romantic. it's bullshit that i'm not romantic. i really want to hold your hands all the times when we are together. hug you from the back.. and you kiss my forehead.. i really want it.. just wait k sayang..slow2~ hheehhee..